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Im trying to call Mike but I guess he went off to his class. He's not even answering his cellphone. He got exams after that he'll be leaving for a vacation and we wont be able to talk for two months. We were fighting about something that's why I want to talk to him. It's all about his friend Elia, I dunno but I think something's going on. If he's cheating or he likes her, all he got to do is tell me and I will not put up a fight. What really bothers me is he tell her his personal secrets and he doesnt tell me anything about those kind of stuffs. He doesnt trust me enough to tell me those. It just pisses me off that he is like that. He's not even sweet and I dont see him make any effort to make me feel special and when I complain, all he says is he's like that and I got to deal with it. I know guys are jerks and insensitives but .. ugh! iunno this time. We fought about that like many times and he never make an effort. Sometimes I really get depress and frustrated about it and disappointed, too. And he's really good at pointing his fingers on me when I complain. And I think something's going on with him and that Elia. Maybe he's not being a two-bit-male-whore but I think he has feelings for her. Now, I feel really bad u-u;; *kicks him*

My blog is back. It's going to contain same entries like here in tabulas. And I opened a portfolio site. I dont have much to say except its like 40 degrees celcius outside. Im too lazy to blog x__________x;;

Guess where I am?? Im in Bicol =D We're supposed to go to the beach yesterday but I wasnt feeling good so I stayed home and watch movies. The other night, my friends got me really drunk and I still feel not good until now.

My Gram is always pissed at me because she thinks Im monopolizing the tv. She even hide the remote control in her closet. As if I didnt see her do that. Tomorrow she's leaving and I can watch tv as long as I want.

Mike seemed not to be missing me >__<;;
~Gimme a punk!
~Gimme a pimp!
~Gimme a male-hoe!
~Gimme a jerk!
JK XD;;
But Im missing him ;__;

And the Pacquiao-Marquez was shit!! Pacquiao knocked Marquez three times in the first round and I thought he was gonna finish him in the second round but he wasnt able to because Pacquiao had his left hand injured and sprained his leg. I was really disappointed that the judges decided the fight to be a draw but Im proud that of Pacquiao that he was able to sustain his injury and finish the fight until Round 12. I even thought Pacquiao was the winner. Damnit, why do they dont have an age limit for judges?? I heard one of the judges is 71 years old. Pacquiao was disappointed too upon hearing the judges decisions. I cant wait for the re-match =3

I got no email u-u;;;; and I think it's going to rain because there are moths flying everywhere.

Were go swimming tonight, there's a pool about three kilometers outside the town proper. My friends will pick me up at 8pm so I got an hour to prepare.

This is an entry not worth reading, LOL. I think I still got a hangover.

Yesterday I was watching tv and I saw the live coverage of the "union of hearts" of this Elaine Crisostomo with her gf, Ava. Elaine Crisostomo is the ex-live-in partner of Desiree Del Valle, a young actress here in the Philippines. They got married years ago in Las Vegas. As an actress, I like Desiree a lot. She has this different spunk. A lot of people had been criticizing her for being involve in a gay relationship. I dont see anything wrong about it. You love a person despite of her sexuality and that can be unconditional love. For a girl who lives here where society place upon a high standard for what they call "morality", it takes a lot to be in that kind of relationship. Well, at least she didnt let some guy stupify her.

Guess what?? I missed my cellphone u-u;;
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I cant believe i believed everything we had would last
So young and naive of me to think she was from your past
Foolish of me to dream of one day having your kids
Love is so blind it feels right when its wrong

I cant believe i fell for your schemes im smarter that
So dumb and naive to believe that with me your a changed man
Foolish of me to compete when you cheat with loose women
It took me sometime but now i moved on
Because i realized i got

Me myself and i thats all i got in the end
Thats what i found out
And it aint no need to cry
I took a vow that for now on
I'mma be my own best friend

Its so controlling you say that you love me but u dont
Your family told me one day i would see it on my own
Next thing i know im dealing with your three kids in my home
Love is so blind it feels right when its wrong

I love that song for two-bit male hoes =3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEBE :3

Belated happy birthday to Misan. Im sorry, Im an ass for not texting you or call you on your birthday. I was on a trip then. Luv you Betchai =D

Im back here in Bicol and foods here suxors -_-;;; From breakfast to dinner all we eat are sea foods!!!!!!!!! Im very picky when it comes to foods. I dont eat crabs and shrimps because they make me puke and I dont like salt-water fishes. I dont eat squid, too unless its calamares. My favorite is pork :3 and they dont buy pork because my Gram thinks its full of cholesterol. I like sauted vegetables but they cook vegetables in coconut milk!! Grabeh, puro ginataan, yech! And my sister is a glutonic slob. She is even so "madamot". I keep saying to her "eww, you're fat" so she will lose her appetite and go on a diet =D

I MISSED YOU AND YOU FINALLY UPDATED *__*

Ill be living here in Bicol but I'll see you once I visit Manila again. I got a one-month job here and I'll start tomorrow. Pay is not that good but life here aint stressfull like in Manila. My classmates and friends are already asking where I go. I just got offline messages from them in yahoo messenger. Grabe, nawawala na ko sa sirkulasyon, hahaha!!

It's hard to be in 56k and its taking 3 minutes for my friendster account page to load. Gesh, I complain a lot XD;; Oi ganda ng user pic mo Sars =D

My pimples are dry now, yay!! I already bought an anti-blemish gel. A relative told me maybe I was a victim of "barang" (witchcraft) so I need to see an "albularyo" (witchdoctor). LOL. I really look bad, hahaha!!! I dont even look in the mirror anymore. A neighbor asked me if I just had chicken pox because I got small black scars all over my face. Buti na lang nga hindi butas-butas yung peklat nun pimples *__* I just hope I dont get pimples anymore ;__;

Nyahaha!! I got 21 days left for my work. Wag mo na kayang bilangin Sheila kasi maloloka ka lang lalo =p

Edit ko post ko. Nakakadyahi kasi, parang keso de bola. Kaya eto na lang, survey:

Name Survey
If you call me Sheila then you must have know my real name.
If you call me Elhay then you must be a close real-life friend, a family or someone I grew up with.
If you call me Lay then you know the short-cut of Elhay.
If you call me Bessy then you are Torp.
If you call me Relena then you are someone I know from irc.
If you call me Rel then you are from irc also.
If you call me Bangaw then you are Aliza.
If you call me Sheyla then you are Sars.
If you call me Lea then you are Kristina when drunk.
If you call me Shyla then you are Auntie Ditha.
If you call me Shie' then you are my classmate in college.
If you call me Shy then you are Lovella.
If you call me Shells then you are Sherwin.
If you call me Sheltox then you are one of those guys from our block.
If you call me Sheila Marie then you are Arthur.
If you call me Mama Sheila/ Mommy/ Mom then you are my hostee or ex-hostee.
If you call me Nene then you are my parents or my Gram.
If you call me Marciela then you are Michelle or Uncle Uriel.
If you call me Lala then you are Auntie Elsie.
If you call me Calai-calai then you are the security guard in my high school.
If you call me Genie then you are my Geometry teacher.
If you call me Odelon then you are a friend of my dad.

Btw, so you guys know The Apl Song by Black Eyed Peas?? I dont know what to say about that song. I prefer life in the countryside where you pump water from the ground than live in a big city. The Tagalog spelling in the lyrics is kind of funny, tho. Is that song about living here in the Philippines?? Well, he said in the lyrics, for him life here is heaven even others say life here is hell. But in the last part he said that life here is a mess and stressfull and he wish he can save his "brothers". Wtf does he mean, really? I dont know but people here love-hate this place. I guess we love the place and the people but we hate how our economy is going. I just hope life here gets better so Filipinos dont have to work abroad.

Who here has Avril Lavigne screencaps of her video "Dont Tell Me"?? If any of you have, please send it to aznrox@hotmail.com. Thnx